two months.

My husband left me two months ago. One week after our two year anniversary and it’s just now hitting me. I thought I was strong but the truth is I was numb to it all. I don’t understand why I feel the way I feel. Maybe this is God’s way of breaking me down because I don’t think I really had to the faith to believe it wasn’t over until last week. It’s just silly how now that I believe with my whole heart it’s God’s plan for us to be together and that we are meant to be together I am weaker then ever.

But I do have faith that this is not over.

I do have hope that things will change.

And I love him with my whole heart.

I have faith that Jesus can do all things.

I have hope that Jesus will bring my husband home.

And I love Jesus with my whole heart, no matter the outcome.

So I’m okay.

Even though I hurt so much. so so much.

took these at the park the other day and edited them on my iphone. i loveeee nature.

i totally believe in dragons… ;)

i totally believe in dragons… ;)

i love her

i love her

this is my cousin. she is 18 and engaged to the love of her life. this picture was taken their first night back together since he’s been in Afghanistan.. they are sooooo in love and i just wanted to share it.

this is my cousin. she is 18 and engaged to the love of her life. this picture was taken their first night back together since he’s been in Afghanistan.. they are sooooo in love and i just wanted to share it.

“She thought that love was gonna fight
She thought that love was gonna take her home
She thought that love was gonna save her
But love just never showed
She felt that love was always watching
Oh we learned that love was supposed to wait
But sometimes it’s the feelings
That are standing in the air”
Philadelphia by Parachute
my pretty Christmas present :)

my pretty Christmas present :)

amazing

amazing

i hate you.

you made me think i was breaking your heart
you made me think you were falling apart without me

you have a side that no one knows
all they see is are those blue eyes, oh

and tell me now what are you gonna do
all your lies are crashing
and all that’s left is the truth


endless nights of endless love
i felt so special, felt so loved

i really believed i was the only girl
now i know that was a fantasy world

you’ll never know how to truly care
no girl wants a guy who isn’t just theirs

there should be a sign with bright neon lights
for any girl that wants to be in your life

sound the alarms, send the facebook alerts
every girl is gonna know you’re a piece of dirt

you deserve all the hell you’ll get
and i hope someday you’ll actually regret this